Few and far between

I'm not needing to write a lot at the minute which could be a good or a bad thing. I honestly don't know which. Needing to write right now is obviously a bad thing, but eh, what else is this for? So. Drama. Drama drama drama. The band I conduct certainly had an eventful evening…

M.E.T.H.A.N.E

I'll get the the acronym.  It feels like years since I last posted - I've been quite busy. Final year university and all that jazz... A lot has happened, a lot has gone on, and if I'm honest I've needed to write before now but I just haven't. This has the potential to be a…

Told me so

I knew it. I knew I wasn't deteriorating.  Today I sorted my final recital, with the BEST performance of the pieces I've given yet with my new accompanist.  The constant equipment has been sorted and it's all fine. The result? I'm fine.  I'm more than fine. I'm alive.

Swings and Roundabouts

Warning; this could be long Contest weekend is all over and done with. It went well. The trio I was in were apparently the highlight of our band's set, which is always good.  I can't really say much more that is positive. There's too much bad, to much gone wrong. In my last post I…

Desperation

You think you know desperation; the stress it entails, the panicking, frantic beating of your heart; the sick feeling in your stomach.  Every time you get desperate is far worse than the last. Quite simply, we adapt. As humans we adapt and learn. If there is a good outcome, you anticipate another good one because…

Gambling

We all gamble. Everyday. Can we hit snooze one more time? Can we make it across the road? Can I delay this meeting again?  They're all gambles; each scenario could go either way.  I am not someone you would ever find in a betting shop or glancing the odds at the races, it's not me…

*obligatory whistling*

I haven't written anything in over two weeks and there's a simple reason for that: life is good, life is staying good. Seriously. I don't get it. Where to start where to start... I sent my UCAS off for nursing, after much deliberation. I came to the conclusion that the likelyhood of getting funding was…

Ask yourself: What is your Future?

After my last two awful posts, I want one that will have meaning. I want a post that could resonate. I want a post that someone could read and think 'Hang on, maybe this isn't my time'. I've been reading people's blogs, how close they are and it resonates so deeply but I can't adequately…

To conclude and improper use of blog

I have evaluated myself and come to the conclusion that I am obviously a complete cow. I'll start with the good things, all of my university work is done for hand-in: all done. Just needs printing but it's done. I'm vaguely happy with it. That's all the good things...  My last post was pointed and…

New year, old habits

Some people don't change. No matter what you say, no matter how you act, they don't change. I've said many times to this person that I'm getting frustrated with how they act. No I haven't. I haven't said it. I've acted it, I've made it clear to everyone around us (apparently they talk about it)…