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I'm going to be writing a lot at the minute and these posts aren't exactly going to be eloquent or very good, I just need venting. Managed to drag myself to my first university band rehearsal yesterday, and could only manage half of it before I felt like crying or hiding. Leading to me leaving…

Spiral. Spiral. Spiral.

Guess what. I'm plummeting again. Really, really plummeting. Yesterday I was taken to A&E by some lovely police officers and put into the hands of the crisis team.  I'm at the end of my tether, I know I am. I'm going to go to my GP again and make them listen and believe me, I…

This is what this blog is for

I started this blog because I had nowhere else to turn. Nobody wanted to know, I felt alone, and when I did turn to people who were supposed to help it got thrown back in my face in the worst possible way. I was restricted, banned, and generally prejudiced against because I'd opened up and…

I either want to drink… 

... or hang myself. This is the first time I haven't turned to my blog first, before anything else. I've called Samaritans seven times now, I can't call anymore.  I don't want to call my team because a) they'll be asleep, b) if there's a proper callout they'd be needed, and c) the one I'd…