Waves

First thing first: no longer suicidal. I've gotten past that again. Still in a depressive state, but I'm being looked after. Life happens in waves, it really does. Even for someone with no physical or mental health conditions, you have perfectly normal days and then the days you can't see yourself making the next morning…

I’m suicidal

I've been lying to myself for a little while I think. There is no hiding though; I'm suicidal. Not just wanting to not live, actively wanting to stop myself from breathing.  I have not energy. I have no motivation. I have no willingness. I have no care. I have no want. I have no tears.…

Sometimes

Sometimes we need to be told that it's ok to not be yourself. It's ok to not be able to smile, to not be able to hold up a persona and to not be able to hide everything away, whether it's a physical or emotional difference. Sometimes we need a hug. Just someone there, not…