Told me so

I knew it. I knew I wasn't deteriorating.  Today I sorted my final recital, with the BEST performance of the pieces I've given yet with my new accompanist.  The constant equipment has been sorted and it's all fine. The result? I'm fine.  I'm more than fine. I'm alive.

Swings and Roundabouts

Warning; this could be long Contest weekend is all over and done with. It went well. The trio I was in were apparently the highlight of our band's set, which is always good.  I can't really say much more that is positive. There's too much bad, to much gone wrong. In my last post I…

Desperation

You think you know desperation; the stress it entails, the panicking, frantic beating of your heart; the sick feeling in your stomach.  Every time you get desperate is far worse than the last. Quite simply, we adapt. As humans we adapt and learn. If there is a good outcome, you anticipate another good one because…

Gambling

We all gamble. Everyday. Can we hit snooze one more time? Can we make it across the road? Can I delay this meeting again?  They're all gambles; each scenario could go either way.  I am not someone you would ever find in a betting shop or glancing the odds at the races, it's not me…