Two posts today

Sorry for the previous post. Just a message I needed to send. Again. Oh well. I managed my transfusion yesterday, with no hysterics and no panicking. I'm pretty proud of that. One more next week and then I should be (physically) quite a lot better.  I've got my student support meeting this afternoon, or my…

I’ve made up my mind

Self explanatory title. I'm going to my meeting and I'm telling the university everything there is to know: about me, about my friend who's causing it, and about the others who are struggling. I'm not going to tell them that I'm doing it; some will want to go with me, and others will try and…

Hello darkness my old friend

Things are imploding, it's the big bang of my life. Yes I'm being over dramatic. Someone went to the university over Easter, I've gotten over that. Sadly one of my friends had to call security on Sunday though, and that hasn't ended well. Little back story... I'm still depressed, bordering suicidal. I hate this. I…

Still here

Yeah, it's been a while. Hi. Why is it that when depression hits you, it stays? It's stupid. I'm not going to write much, just to get my feelings out. There aren't many at the minute. I'm going to take that as a good thing. One thing I am feeling is guilt though. I snapped…

I am falling apart

Yay. My third term starts tomorrow, and I'm at my psychologist in the morning. Good start eh. Things aren't going well at all. At some point this holiday, someone I trust went to the university and, it seems, gave them a very entertaining story about how I started to struggle last term. I don't even…

Epiphany Time

I wonder what this could be about. You know when you realise something, and it hits you so strongly you just stop? Your stomach swoops, your heart skips, and at the same time your head becomes as light as a feather? That happened yesterday. It wasn't a very nice realisation... or it was... I'm struggling…